Made for this.

For a while, I didn't think people could feel like they were made for one specific thing. Sure, we all know we have a calling or a mission in our lives. I feel like I've known mine for the longest time but didn't realize it. I also feel like I still need to keep searching. God has revealed so many things to me in the calm of my dreams or when I'm thinking. It doesn't occur like the cliched epiphany where the light of heaven shines upon me. It's a peaceful thought that pops into your head and you feel so sure and don't doubt it one bit. Its a known fact about me that I love children. I like talking to them, playing with them, teaching them, listening what they have to say and all that good stuff. I find myself ogling at almost every baby I see or smiling excessively -which lands me weird looks at times from concerned parents that might think I'm some crazed baby snatcher- and at the same time I'm looking forward to the day that I become a mommy myself. Sometimes I feel like its just the hype of baby cuteness but I seriously, in my heart of hearts want nothing more than to be a mom. Its my goal in life to be a teacher that's for sure. If I don't get to be a teacher, I'd want a big family. I know I'm a bit young. Maybe naive. Caring for something is just so fulfilling. Caring for someone is beyond that. No doubt motherhood is one of the hardest jobs but by the grace of God I will have a wonderful husband and I will help raise a family with the things I felt were missing from mine. My mom is a great example of strength in motherhood. I have a lot of things to learn from her.