I don't want to see you.

I can't sleep and I'm a bit light headed for some reason. I'm listening to Camera Obscura, writing, I can't really express how I feel. I don't think my dad will ever get his priorities straight. "I don't want to be a whining girl" but come on, he's really pushing it. It's not really fair...he's a busy man though so I understand. Will this always be his excuse? Maybe if I turn it into mine, he'll understand. I can't pretend to not care because it's like i'm applauding him. Sometimes, I just want to shake him. Slap him around a bit. Then he asks why I'm so quiet and reserved with him. Cause if I don't bite my tongue, I'll go crazy ape on you. That's why.